i need to be alone

I'm wasting my life on, pointless things I sometimes think, when is life ending I'm falling out of conversations I can't pay attention, repeat the question What if I told that love wasn't real You always told me my kindness would kill Never been afraid to say what I feel But I always felt like a third wheel Never put trust in my own fears Never trusted I'm alone here Late nights in my cold chills Broken hearted it wont heal I got to much on my mind but I keep it in check I don't need to rewind I'm just running away from the shit That I thought was a waste of my time Now I'm wasting my time Why in hell would you hurt me? Left me to burn and desert me I know that my love is deserving Don't know what to say so you curse me I need to be alone or I'm gonna lose my shit oh oh oh I need to be alone or I'm gonna lose my shit oh oh oh I gave my heart away for the free You only call me for shit that you need Don't know what to say but I know what to think The more that we argue the more that you drink You're covered in scars, I'm covered in ink Everything I know is gone in a blink I just wanted you like me, stayed up all night nightly To think of our past but not of the present You always told me that I was depressing I know If I die I ain't going to heaven Send me to hell I ain't new to rejection I always felt I was never accepted Most of our time was spent in deception How can I let love be love and still never feel affection I need to be alone or I'm gonna lose my shit oh oh oh I need to be alone or I'm gonna lose my shit oh oh oh