is this a dream?

I want this dream to come to an end what does it mean to be a friend This ghosts path that I'm walking my open heart kept knocking I think its getting to me and I'm falling in love without intimacy I been running away from that shit that I need I guess everything builds, until you don't feel a thing It is what it is but it not what it seems to many drugs will make you fean I lost a lot trying to get in between they say that they love you but now what it means That's a machine mechanical heart puffing on steam closing my heart and I'm eating the key Cuz hurting myself was not helping me I just need a break, cuz all of my friends turned out to be snakes And all of my evil is one in the same they say aim for my heart and not for the brain Shoot for the stars I wished for this pain this knifes in my skin till the monster is slain If I kill the beast will I still feel the same? Is this a dream is everything inside my head, is this a dream am i alive or am i dead Is this a dream is everything inside my head, is this a dream am i alive or am i dead Murder myself in the mirror backwords sipping syrup this redrum makes me tear up These blood eyes never clear up what is the point of my life Where do we go when we die These are the questions that keep alive suicide suicide Late night on a vibe, death note I'm prescribed I told you my feeling of sorrow I live in ah shadow that you couldn't follow Take what you want till I'm hollowed everything given and nothing is borrowed Down bad on this relapse fallen so many times that I cant even feel my knee caps then we snap Is this a dream is everything inside my head, is this a dream am i alive or am i dead Is this a dream is everything inside my head, is this a dream am i alive or am i dead