meditate

I don't feel no better on a rainy day Put the trigger to my head I need to meditate Should I empty out this drum should I let it spray? Yea they'll throw me all my flowers when I'm in the grave I just passed I think these drugs abusive And I stay away from people I be on reclusive Say they wanna have my back then put something through it I don't trust none of these lames I ain't fucking stupid Cuz I just need to meditate These drugs help me to stay awake All I do is make mistakes I just need a fucking break Somebody help me I don't feel healthy I need drink till I feel a buzz Fill up my stomach it's straight to the gut You tell me you love me it's never enough yea You tell me you love me it's never enough yea I'ma get drunk till I pass out Woke back up just to crash out I used to feel now all I feel is numb Ctrl Alt then we deleting them I don't want pity I wanted your help I'm feeling feelings I never have felt My hearts cold but you know that it melts I'm two horned like I'm straight out of hell I hope I get well What do I sell? You know where I dwell Cuz I just need to meditate These drugs help me to stay awake All I do is make mistakes I just need a fucking break