seizure

I've been feeling space I've been close to death In the front seat of my car telling momma that it's ok I'm just breaking down can't get myself into a driveway Collapsing under pressure this a seizure Picking at my bones picking at my features Take me to the therapist they draw my life with needles I can barely speak I'm crying out for freedom These tear drops only fall you can never keep them Blood in my eyes I cant see my face How I lose it all but I still keep my faith I don't know if God is real so I put trust in fate I believe you become the choices that you make Cuz I've been up all night I'm barely catching sleep I feel like falling of the edge would give the edge to me In this life, deaths your only guaranteed I had to hate myself to like my enemies I tried to fight my feelings now I let them in They try to force my smile with some medicine This man I used to be is now ah skeleton A quiet room cuz no one ever talks to elephants I've been hated by many my love was strong now its jaded I put these scabs on my body to try help when I'm naked Cant see the point in my feelings but if I see them I'll chase them I lose my head in the thoughts I'm so decapitated I'm to messed up try to get my life together and keep my head up Don't know what's wrong with me I'm still getting better Sad boy turned an old yeller these teardrops from my eyes need an umbrella I'm sorry I'm so negative sorry that I tell you how I feel but cant reply to simple messages Why does my heart hold on to me but have no residence And I don't need to say to much just let that resonate I feel the hate it's all the same I keep a blade you keep the fame We stayed the same but stated pain was not to blame I feel insane It's all for love ain't no love to gain ain't no love again