Story of Kam

Woah Woah Aahoahoh Woah Woah Aahoahoh My first memory getting bathed in the sink I got God and my family for to thank Get my degree stack up this bread increase my rank Been through the mud I just keep rolling like a tank Plenty deaths in my family an open casket always sad to see This how my life had to be recent events made a man of me People tell me I look like a soldier been through that war man I already told you One look in your eyes and I know you all eyes on me need a little exposure I can not shake the feeling that I'm only loved under certain conditions Found out I wasn't going to the league and never found an equal or greater ambition So many days I felt trapped in my body don't even know the point of living Since I want to be dead I might as well just run up this money and make me a killing Been through so much of that pain my emotions went numb I no longer got feeling That's how I know there's a God so much evil in my heart and I'm not a villain Last night I reflected on my life and realized that I do not know how to love I cannot show no affection Is it a curse or a blessing I appreciate all of the women that offered me love to bad that I cannot except it Ima just keep over here and stay lonely lying to myself saying that it's refreshing Wish I could love you but I do not feel Wish I was born at the top of the hill Steadily climbing it's getting too real What is my purpose cause it is not clear Got tossed in that ocean didn't know how to swim Had to mature went and grew me some gills I'm up and I'm down can't explain how I feel I'm up and I'm down can't explain how I feel