pride !

No one by my side I know I got too much pride I had to put my feelings aside 'Cause I know he's not gonna ride I wanna keep my options opened I don't have time to have a lover But then I complain being a loner It hurts even when I'm sober Call me if you wanna come over Can I stay with you even when at your lowest? Can we have sex all night 'till the morning? Wanna stay with me and share all these moments? I know that it's been so long Too much time without it it made me want more Sometimes at night I remember the times That we used to Facetime where you made me feel special You said all those cute things about me And this made me think that this thing between us had potential We shared all those promises and expectations And this shit just went to a whole other level Then you started ghosting me like everybody else It hurt but I got back to being a devil All the times you made me feel better Even though now I'm doing better It's not the same as it was back then You hurt me so what do you pretend? They keep coming back 'cause I know they be missing me But I ignore them 'cause I don't want to get hurt They know what they lost but its too late now They have the audacity to be sad when I felt pain first No one by my side I know I got too much pride I had to put my feelings aside 'Cause I know he's not gonna ride I wanna keep my options opened I don't have time to have a lover But then I complain being a loner It hurts even when I'm sober Call me if you wanna come over Can I stay with you even when at your lowest? Yeah I miss you so He don't want me to go Wants to stay with me when he blows Shawty wants to fly me out Tell me what's this all about He just wants to see me now My baby's the one and there's no doubt I know that this is hard Yea we are too far apart But I feel your heart close I can't make this shit up You've been here from the start My heart froze