I. Delicate

Three years ago I left my home Left my city all alone Left my friends and my family Into the vast unknown Best choice I ever made But it's had its ups and downs There's many places that I've stayed Yet I still can't settle down Gained new friends Old ones saw ends New memories More summaries It's so small Once you get the ball rolling It'll try to make you fall Sometimes I wish I couldn't feel at all Sometimes I feel like I'm hitting a wall I carry more on my shoulders Not easier as I'm older Maybe with confrontation I've gotten bolder I feel like I've gone through change Yet it appears so strange I still have the same type of problem range These are the times of my life I consider the best Yet they're also the times that I call the hardest Just remind myself nevertheless It's all gonna be worth it I guess Dreadfully scared of being lonely Just take care the others taught me Of myself, cause someone else Won't feel the same way about me When I need help You can tell My emotions you can read I just dwell I don't whelp I just silently bleed In the moment Bestowment It's my friends that I need Those the closest When I'm lowest It's my focus that misleads They're not around I won't be found It's up to me to proceed I try to train My scattered brain So my emotions could be freed I find it hard to trust some people My mind has never been that peaceful I'm just expecting another sequel Of abandonment that's equal I depend on others too much But I pretend that they're the crutch When it's myself that's truly out of touch Can't even get over myself just to say hi Because I'm afraid of dealing with another goodbye So sometimes I don't even bother to try Then I regret it, and can't even push myself to cry I'm just numb to everything Neutral reaction to anything That comes before me I'm disappointed that I can't even sing I'm just a mediocre rapper My production is alright But I am no actor My performance will suffice That's all I ever am Just a passable Kam Living in the shadow Of my potential program I doubt that I'm trying the best that I can Cause when I say it, it feels just like I'm selling a scam If I keep yelling I'm going to damage my diaphragm At this point, I can't even say I give a damn