Mistakes

Why can't I stop over thinking, I'm so over thinking about you I don't want to love you, I want to let go and move on but I really don't think I know how to I want to forget all the things that we did, it's easier living without you We were searching for love, I couldn't find myself but I was more lost when I found you I gave you a chance when I could've given it to someone else, now I'm stuck with regret I tried to be optimistic, but who am I kidding the worst is what I expect There are these rules to love, many were broken like most of the promises we never kept You were my right hand, no matter what I write now it just seems only right that I left And I, can't keep pretending I'm okay Truth is it's killing me inside, what more can I say The pain only grows more and more everyday And as time goes on I don't know how much more I can take Tried convincing ourselves it had to get worse before it got better We expect it to work, but neither of us even put in the effort We're good people, we just have to accept that we're not good together It's a hard combination, trying to mix this pain and pleasure We both made mistakes, forgot and forgave, but somehow we couldn't recover And all along, we knew it was wrong, we should've stayed friends, and never been lovers So many emotions began overflowing, I should've listened to my brothers They said things would be different now we're so conflicted we don't even know one another And I, can't keep pretending I'm okay Truth is its killing me inside, what more can I say The pain only grows more and more everyday And as time goes on I just don't know how much more I can take I put my pride to the side, and bite my tongue 'til it bleeds I gave you everything I had, but I was too blind to see You took advantage of the fact I wear my heart on my sleeve So I tore it off and buried it underneath the words on this beat You were the one I told my secrets to now you're one that I keep I don't regret loving you, but I hate that we're in way too deep I hate that there's a hole in my heart, and a space in my bed where you would sleep We both made mistakes, forgot and forgave, the best mistakes are ones that teach And I, can't keep pretending I'm okay Truth is its killing me inside, what more can I say The pain only grows more and more everyday And as time goes on I just don't know how much more I can take