CAN'T BE MAD IN HEAVEN

And I'm still me Swear the last two years been tryna kill me They ain't really see what I been dealing with Throw myself inside my head and fucking seal me in But I got my team to hold me down High off this dream that maybe we could make it out But it's teeming with my doubts Can I lead 'em out the crowds Will they hear me if I shout What if I keep bleeding out, f*ck It's cause I care too much Guess I get it from my moms yuh How you hit the gas inside the Honda? Lasting guilt beside her mantra Wish I wasn't fucking awful, I be off it all around her You supposed to be role model You so hostage to yo habits Maybe if I quit 'em I'd be happy But I'm too fucking afraid to face my fears without my baggage Guess I need a little damage control Someone else to help me handle the load Hoping you gon take my hand when I go And it might of took you long enough to know this I'm not tryna stunt I just want to be noted Wanna cover that I'm broken Try to move ahead and walk the line of Noah Had to press the brakes and turn the other way I'm too afraid of being open I just wanted to be noticed Cause it's every other day that you've been giving me the coldest I lost my focus I don't know what's gonna come so I keep a heater loaded Cause every day is like a fucking time lapse I'm just tryna to make some fucking time back A way to move on, but I ain't even tryna find that A thousand ways to hide that, knowin that's on me Yeah, that's on me War inside my mind that needs to be free Should've been closer to the people I need So I'll go and take the blame, cause that's on me Ayo Out the shadow of the valley of death Time to add another tally while I'm counting my heads The finale of the road, I bet they bow where I tread Cause the sun is getting low on all you doubting the best Tell me who you running with Tell me who you trusting in Tell me who you turning to when all the walls is coming in I ain't worried Dark days passed, and they still to come But you can best believe that I just use the shit to build me up Yeah, this ain't the last that you gon hear of me Finished with the tears on my skin that been searing me Antisocial extrovert, I ain't what I appear to be Cause trust me bruh, I'm still surprising everybody near to me Yeah, ion know where this will lead me I know this shit got ups and downs and it ain't always easy But I hope this music helping someone deal with all they demons Cause I gotta figure God gave me this gift for a reason, Cog I been through it all Looking back on my past, I'm still standing tall And ain't nobody really help along the way I just knew that way before I could walk, I had to crawl I really hate to see the picture gettin faded But all the moments that we shared, I never trade it We're getting older and we're growing apart But the thought of you still in my mind I couldn't shake it I know I'll get to see the sunrise again But if I close my eyes and then count to ten Will you be there when I open them up Cause I really wanna be by your side until the end You were sent to answer all of my prayers But I could see towards the end, you didn't care And everybody knows you CAN'T BE MAD IN HEAVEN So whenever this ride is up I'll see you up there Wasted days along my shoulders Gotta look forward Somethings aren't forward And I can't wait And I can't wait Waitin on someone else One, two, three, four I'm trying to stay up top of myself Leaving it up to chance I can't stay the same And I'm getting better I'm getting better I'm getting better