how 2 mourn (feat. Vinnie-Dangerous)

I done lost some homies in the double digits Plus my brother, my grandfather, damn this list is filling My favorite rapper dies and I got to pretend I do not feel it Or I'll get a bunch of "you don't really know them" in yo mentions But Hip hop was there for me when I felt I had nobody else Nas said Hip hop was dead and I ain't wanna live myself Since I developed emotions It's been a tug of war To express or not Got me thinking what the f*ck I got them for? Afraid to cry Cause I can't let them think that I ain't man enough But these young boys dying slow inside, tryna man it up Their friends get shot and killed but they're taught not to express it And then you wonder why they in the streets retaliating But what happens when they die and there ain't a man behind it? Can't take it out on your girl, cause that's domestic violence So we escape with the weed, with the pills, with the lean Till it becomes too much, and somebody out mourning me How to mourn How to mourn How to mourn How to mourn How to mourn How to mourn How to mourn Hiding my emotions, so I don't come off as weak Harvest season, taking souls everyday of the week White devils, Black devils, every shade I done peeped In the midst of it all, their favorite color is green Dear Mama I used to question God when you went back home Popping pills, smoking cigs to run away from it all Now that everything is happening, this guilt feels strong Until I realized, you were here all along When Vinnie lost his brother man I felt his pain Retribution, peep the cycle, this shit not a game Behind this smile, I hide a lot of pain Somehow I still empower, educate, and entertain Attempted suicide in the year 2017 Lo' and behold came along Dames Made that project in the darkest place I found the light and now I'm making Damien today Growth