Wish you were here

Lie to me and tell me you know what it's like Yeah You won't get it till you live it ain't just something I say You know Fall '21 waking up in cold sweats No less than three attempts on me Still made two girls love me I had both hearts in my hands Same shit P was pushing Z's out the same whip Juggin with, trees in the boot like a Timberland I got a call She said oh you've made your bed so lie in it and lie about who lies in it There's no point in denying it I did still Tell you that I've healed but you ain't buying it I'll change up my environment and find a way to make the story real Cos I can make it real But I can't make you mean it That had me telling six I love her 'til she ain't believe it Cos what's good's being the one if nobody knows it? It's like braille they gon understand when they feel it And yeah I bet you feel it now New girls came around Pap lights, double cheek kisses And the bigger crowds While I was still treating heart strings like a puppet show So I ain't wanna go, I had to go Yeah Tell me how it works out Tell me how it all goes Liyah used to tell me find a window when the doors closed When I was doing scams and sort codes Remy had the lines and the dots like it's morse code Cah it's one thing being broke, it's another having problems that money can't even fix That still wasn't something you would've wanted to miss That's the reason I'm even here rushing like this I know it takes time But I needed it quick Cos when you see you're family die before they get to see it And tell the girl you love goodbye before you get to mean it And then you're burying your friend before you deep it That gon change the way you see shit Keep your eye on me like fucking anaemics Do you have any idea how many girls I lost to the game Ain't keeping me sane Then try and tell me that it's overdue Cos if you know the girls I know then you'd lose focus too Then say you're over who? But still I'm Margiela tux wearin And she couldn't stop staring I couldn't even blame her at all It's Schiaparelli scarves by the dozen And I'm Benjamin button Been 100 from the day I was born I wonder what comes up for you when I come up in conversation Is it the moves I'm making? Is it the girls I'm dating? Maybe I don't come up at all cos in your eyes I'm ancient Or I'm a lesson that you learned in maybe staying strangers Don't forget the moment that you started losing faith in me cos that isn't a time that I could let myself forget You're the reason why these stories hit the way they do And why I empty all these bottles and I fill them with regrets Fake it till you make it I was rolling round my city like a star until they clocked and started treating me like one The rap that I had wrote you when I told you this would happen is just sitting in my pad until I feel as if I'm done And I ain't done yet But trust me I ain't want you to miss this