S.a.d

Sorry if this ain't sorry well let me apologize to you Sorry don't fix shit it's just some sorry ass excuse You quick to say you sorry cause you don't wanna hear the truth What's a sorry from a sorry ass dude conflicted and confused I can't even count how many times I'm disappointed and you bear with me Heavy problem that wasn't yours if I lacked it it was there for me Let down after let down it was never time you wasn't there for me These memories of deeds I did I never thought you would care for me Hoped that you care for me shit you promised that you'll always be there for me I know I did it dirty about 30 times or more So I can understand if you don't want me anymore If I feel so guilty you look at me like I'm filthy Every time I loved I felt the hate from it I know you see it try your hardest not to say nothing But shit I'm not the guy to tell you that I'll wait for you It's not that I don't love you it's just not the way for me But I'm willing to take it to the grave for you And if there's nothing left to say you know I'll pray for you Oh baby girl you know I'll pray for you Just follow me and hope you escape from it I pray My baby mom's getting weary eyes start tearing I know it hurts to love she had enough don't want me near her How many excuses you gotta hear? how many tears you gotta fight? A lot of nights you want me there but out of mind and out of sight Too many times you made it clear and I was saying it's alright I'm first to stand for you I always felt misunderstood Always said I can't for you and now if I ain't have it it's all good You know that I love you and only time will tell you if it could Just listen shit I live the life of full of conflictions I hurt the ones that love me most I had problems with addictions Held on to what was holding me close I can't even see what I was doing Shit I'm blinded from all of the smoke I fear to go to sleep But I can't complain when I'm awoke shit Just call me a joke baby when you laughing your ass off Ayy first off not no bishop or no priest or no pastor You steady bringing up my past baby girl you know my past Hurt don't think you safe with these pass words Shit you overdue it you wanna take it past worse Then baby you a disaster for sure yeah baby let's go I'm sorry baby that you done fell in love with a nigga like me the love with a little of mine But see what I did Blow the horn I need you to know I'm sorry I never meant to do the things I've done