How I Really Feel

See I can tell a pretty lie straight to your face But who would I become if I made that mistake I haven't lost a soul, they just slowly get replaced I'm taking all these xans jus to numb the pain away You're good at saying things aren't always what they seem I told you how I felt, you said life moves anyways I try to open up, but it gets thrown in my face You say you're here for me when I'm all alone most days I can't take the pain, I just can't take all this pain I wanna live a villain, but I just cannot escape These things are getting better when I'm lost inside the rain But now I'm taking drugs, just to silence what you say I wish for better times, wish to go back to the days When it was me and you, no one else was in the way I told you things are fine, just so my life won't seem gray But I guess it's like you say, life goes on and people change I'm hoping when I play this in the car that you'll know These aren't just some words put together by a joke I'm really gonna speak on the life that I chose These xannys all I know, but these percs do not condone I'm sorry if I try again, I lived without a soul I'm begging for some help, or should someone hear me out I hate the life I live, girls will hurt you for some clout I hate the way you are, comfort me to please the crowd