I was lost

I was lost now I'm all up in my head I'm just wishin' I was dead, wishin' I could just escape I was lost now I'm lookin' in the dark I'm just lookin' for a spark, wishin' you just never left I was gone slowly losin' all my friends we will never make amends f*ck the ones who won't attend We were gone tryin' different kinds of drugs wonderin' what's fuckin' up, wonderin' what's makin' us so dumb Have you ever felt so dumb? You just wanna hang the noose just don't know where hang it from Wanna live it up, but don't wanna give it up Wanna give it up, but don't wanna live enough I've been takin' pills, man, all kinds of different stuff Tryin' to numb the pain, tryin' to hide who I've become Tryin' to hide the pain, so my life can seem okay I'm goin' through this hurt, pass me 1998 Why, why, why, why, why do I choose to die? Lost inside my mind, lost inside your mind Oh Why, why, why, why, why do you choose to lie? Lost inside your mind, lost inside my mind