Is It Easier

Is it easier when they hurt you first Telling you they're not what you deserve That they'll never be good enough for you And leave you crying in the living room, in the living room Cause it kills me doing that to someone who never did wrong And I cant live with the fact that I'm the one who's causing all their pain, their pain So tell me which is easier Hating someone else seems easier than hating yourself Because then at least someone else gets the heat I'd rather wonder where it all went wrong Than cry because I know for sure It's me this time and that it's not a lie And I know, that some will call me crazy Because I'm asking for all of this hurt But I know, that if they were to leave me At least I learn what I am worth and what I should deserve Instead of sitting here, never in the clear, wallowing in shame cause babe this time I have the blame So tell me is it easier when they hurt you first Telling you they're not what you deserve That they'll never be good enough for you And leave you crying in the living room, in the living room Cause it kills me doing that to someone who never did wrong And I cant live with the fact that I'm the one who's causing all their pain So please, tell me which is easier If only you knew, I never meant to hurt you If I could take it back we'd never fade to black If only you knew, that I know how screwed up this is And what I lack is why we can't go back And I know, that some will call me crazy Because I'm asking for all of this hurt But I know, that if they were to leave me At least I learn what I am worth and what I should deserve Instead of sitting here, never in the clear, wallowing in shame cause babe this time I have the blame So tell me is it easier when they hurt you first Telling you they're not what you deserve That they'll never be good enough for you And leave you crying in the living room, in the living room Cause it kills me doing that to someone who never did wrong And I cant live with the fact that I'm the one who's causing all their pain So please, tell me which is easier