The Girl Before the One

Could count on one hand how many times I've been in love, is that enough? For me to know that no one changes their mind overnight They run around and pretend like nothing's different this month That by the time they pull the trigger there's no chance to fight I think I'm doomed to always be the girl before the one The girl you keep in your back pocket just for fun Because I don't see a savior anywhere around I'm waiting in my tower, never to be found So I'll sit and watch my movies, read my romance novels Wishing someone would rescue me, oh wouldn't that be novel So I'll sit and cry myself to sleep as I down another glass of wine And ask for signs on borrowed time for someone to want to be mine You're not the first person in the world to ever feel regret For the way you sold your heart for free, left saying "why abandon me?" Love that consuming, that terrifyingly high makes you scared to fall And when you crash land you wonder was it worth it after all? I think I'm doomed to always be the girl before the one The girl you keep in your back pocket just for fun Because I don't see a savior anywhere around I'm waiting in my tower, never to be found So I'll sit and watch my movies, read my romance novels Wishing someone would rescue me, oh wouldn't that be novel So I'll sit and cry myself to sleep as I down another glass of wine And ask for signs on borrowed time for someone to want to be mine Every time I think I'm crazy that I'm just paranoid from the past But every time I think they're leaving I'm proven right that it won't last I want to plead, and beg, and surrender for a love I don't deserve Deep down I know I'm worth more than this but it feels like I must serve This sentence And it's endless I'm left breathless And you won't miss me Please My darling Turns out my fear wasn't in vain 'Cause you said "I love you" then ran off in the rain Somehow I always know, that pit it starts to grow It screams get ready for the heartbreak And the tears that fall are not fake You say "I'm sorry I can't do this" I say "Can I just have one more kiss" I wish you luck as you start to run Away from me and towards the one