Too Many Sorrys

Was I too much? Or not enough? I don't think it matters anymore No it never did, of that I'm sure From 800 miles, to 800 I miss you's I didn't realize that my heart Was something you'd misuse Now if you had told me I'd be lonely I'd laugh at you and say "No this time he promised he'd love me forever He told me he would stay" But too many sorry's and too many long nights crying in my room He did what I couldn't, he made the decision, for one but not for two Was I too much? Not a light enough touch? I see you now for what you're worth Not even close to what I deserved From the thousand times, that my soul died I didn't realize that my love Was something that could be taken in stride Now if you had told me I'd be lonely I'd laugh at you and say "No this time he promised he'd love me forever He told me he would stay" But too many sorry's and too many long nights crying in my room He did what I couldn't, he made the decision, for one but not for two The teardrops stained my lashes My letters burned to ashes My lyrics of bliss Were burnt away to a crisp I don't care how many times you'd apologize The fingers behind your back, they disqualify Every painstaking breath Every heartbreaking mess You turned me into a martyr Don't make this any harder By lying through your teeth "Baby, I'm sorry, I swear" Well I'm sure you are now Maybe someone will hear your prayers But if you had told me I'd be lonely I'd have laughed at you and said "Honey believe me, not trying to be mean I'm glad to me he's dead" Because too many sorry's and too many long nights crying in my room I wish I'd done it sooner, made the decision, for me, now I'm in bloom