Lonely Stoner

Everyday it feel like I'm getting closer Play the hand I'm dealt like a game of poker  Light up the L tonight I'll be a lonely stoner Ain't heard the fat lady, so I guess it ain't over  Everyday it feel like I'm getting closer Play the hand I'm dealt like a game of poker  Light up the L tonight I'll be a lonely stoner Ain't heard the fat lady, so I guess it ain't over  So close but yet so far, that's just the reality  Been through some things that'a make you wanna give up on dreams  I'm talking pain so bad, you wish yo life was over It's cuz of pain like that, that I can't stay sober I light up the L for love, lessons, and life And that green is all I need, despite that pill and act hype Getting high, floating above the lows, sometimes scared to look down It feel like sometimes ain't really nothing worth something on the ground Seen my momma get her wings and that's pain I can't explain One of my closest friends passed, drunk driver swerved in her lane See I don't talk about it much and that's probably fucking me up Try to block it out while I blow the smoke, sipping from this cup Sometimes I take off in the whip, cruise control, open road Middle lane take my pain, driving help me ease my load Talk to God, ask for forgiveness, cuz He really know my soul Behind the wheel tonight, burning down, riding out all alone Everyday it feel like I'm getting closer Play the hand I'm dealt like a game of poker  Light up the L tonight I'll be a lonely stoner Ain't heard the fat lady, so I guess it ain't over  Everyday it feel like I'm getting closer Play the hand I'm dealt like a game of poker  Light up the L tonight I'll be a lonely stoner Ain't heard the fat lady, so I guess it ain't over  Nightmares keeping me up, I'm barely getting sleep Can't make out the face, but it feel like somebody chasing me I know it's just a dream, but I be tryna slow down in my sleep Jus so I can see if I recognize who after me And folk be quick to say you changed on em Not knowing the path you on, is really bout to change something Tryna pave the way and make it so we all eat The life we had was sour, but soon it's gon be sweet I keep my distance whenever I see ya true colors Protect my peace, even if it comes at the cost of others I be content hanging with my nieces, they love me to pieces And I done searched but it's hard to find that kinda love in the streets With everyday that pass, I know I'm getting older Feel like the weight of the world is sitting on my shoulders Life full of twists and turns like a rollercoaster  Time waits for no one, that clock never gon move slower Everyday it feel like I'm getting closer Play the hand I'm dealt like a game of poker  Light up the L tonight I'll be a lonely stoner Ain't heard the fat lady, so I guess it ain't over