Gauge Means Nothing in the Car

June came a little too early And summer ended a little too late And now I'm gonna be behind on work I miss the east coast humidity I never though I'd say those words, But I guess I got a lot of reading done Hey I really loved "War and Peace," but Will I feel the same in 15 years, I don't know Time passed a little too slowly, but it's only because I know I'm stuck It took some time but Rosie's been nicer, I guess my attitude was just bad Hey mom are thinking about us? Don't worry, I know you needed a break, Oh please just don't forget we're here, It might be what we want some day We listened to screamo on the way to the airport, You said it sucks, but maybe you could like it? Hey mom, you could start a band, or at least try karaoke? Oh god wasn't the sky so beautiful I could have cried if I wasn't so embarrassed Just looking at a picture, We used to live somewhere that nice Just throw my name away, I'm going somewhere better Or at least somewhere that no one cares Picture someone driving up a mountain away from a place they hate Or so I tell myself, you know I'm not that cool Did I have dreams anyways? And if not is that so bad? Isn't it enough just to want to live? And I'll forgive almost anything but it doesn't mean I'm just another hand to help out But the sky is clear today and I've gotta do laundry We were at the store and I could feel people judge us I was a little loud but maybe I'm just sensitive But lately I've been going out at 6 Going running, buying spinach even if I don't eat it Hey you know it's just a start It's all about building good habits The other day when I was running around the lake I met someone and she said that she used to play drums I was in your room listening to your music I guess I lied when I said I hated it Sometimes I guess I want to scream too And I got older but there are still things I'd like to do The sun rays at 9:00 only make me feel slightly less bad Quitting my job and sending you away, was it too much this time? Oh god, I, I, I, I, I, I, I, I, I just don't know how I'm supposed to live So I got older, but why am I still so stupid? It's like I can't see my own face, when I think about it I just wanted a little more time, but I can't seem to take care of myself without hurting someone else (Life passes in many ways Life flashes away and I once though i could know anything at all but Joints just hurt and lungs wheeze So I just do nothing but Stare out of the window and think, was it worth it?) When you were young and we lived in California Your dad would come around but I never really told you That piece of shit never tried to raise you But he'd come around and just tell me I was doing it all wrong What did I lose this time? I never see cars before I'm already hit I always lived like I was running to the finish line Not to die but just to live differently And it seems I, I, I, I, I, I, I, I, I fucked it up again, and just to give myself a chance So I got older, I was always waiting For a chance to have a break And figure out what I wanted I don't care how brittle my bones get I'm still here, judge me if you want to I'll keep telling my self I don't care (Life just passes quickly I know it's something everyone one Says but I never really Took it too seriously Gazing back at decades, thinking of the moments And the hard headed way I lived that didn't make anyone happy) We all get older, it seems I missed 20 years as a young adult, but is it too late? I'm still here and I've got my dreams Buried as they are by years of part time; So I can't be famous... Who said that was the point? (No regrets for our youth! Sounds like a nice title Of a film, but one that I could Never relate to Cause I'll always regret Ignoring my family's feelings...) Forget my name and forget my face I don't wanna be remembered Forget my name, and forget my face I wanna start over Forget my name and forget my face I don't wanna be remembered Forget my name, and forget my face I wanna start over I wanna start over I wanna start over I wanna start over I wanna go somewhere I wanna go somewhere I wanna go somewhere else. (I want to be no one But I don't wanna disappear I want to be no one at all) Hey, I'm sorry Oh god I'm sorry