letter

I wonder if I'm worth it Ended up far away Cause I kept on working I'm still fighting today Past mistakes Have found their way To hold me down I'm not okay Now I'm writing sad lyrics While everybody's sleeping, I've been searching through my spirit I wanna get it all on paper, I want you to feel it My letter from me to you, I'm sorry and defeated Lookin' at my past, never felt this harder Hardships, brought tears to my mother Dad, on the other side, fighting me and fighting life Wants me off the cigarettes, sorry, won't happen tonight I'm feeling nostalgic All the choices that I made, brought in something tragic Unaware of consequences, in my world of plastic Growing up, I realized that it's not fantastic To do the things I've done I cheated and I lied, what have I become Pretending to be someone else, I tried to run But no more, this darkness I'll fight, 'till I'll be long gone Now I'm writing sad lyrics While everybody's sleeping, I've been searching through my spirit I wanna get it all on paper, I want you to feel it My letter from me to you, I'm sorry and defeated I can't erase all the time I wasted Running from the truth got me sad and fainted Singing my regrets, getting way over my chest I need power to move on, maybe one day I'll be blessed Fast forward, trials and tribulations So different, always in disconnections Showing you my point, I don't think you wanna hear me I know where it goes and I know it won't be easy The party's over again and I ain't sleeping It's 4 am and I'm blowing smoke out to the ceiling Looking for my peace, but I'm drinking alcohol Way too much into my system, I'm about to lose it all My memory lane is full Tears left in people's eyes, I'm feeling so ridiculed Bad choices took a toll on everything I do, demons join me in the booth Pessimistic and alone, there's no room for someone new Now I'm writing sad lyrics While everybody's sleeping, I've been searching through my spirit I wanna get it all on paper, I want you to feel it My letter from me to you, I'm sorry and defeated I can't erase all the time I wasted Running from the truth got me sad and fainted Singing my regrets, getting way over my chest I need power to move on, maybe one day I'll be blessed Maybe one day I'll be blessed Maybe I could've stopped it Prevent it all from happening If I only had patience To act better about it Time would've showed Everything we missed and needed We would've known What to do to feel completed Playing the chances now It could've turned around This way of acting loud Fights would've stopped somehow We were impulsive Easygoing with choices Instead of one Together we are two voices I wonder if I'm worth it Ended up far away Cause I kept on working I'm still fighting today Past mistakes Have found their way To hold me down I'm not okay Now I'm writing sad lyrics While everybody's sleeping, I've been searching through my spirit I wanna get it all on paper, I want you to feel it My letter from me to you, I'm sorry and defeated I can't erase all the time I wasted Running from the truth got me sad and fainted Singing my regrets, getting way over my chest I need power to move on, maybe one day I'll be blessed