Suicide Note

I ain't been right since grandma beezy She gave me my purpose my reasons She left me and she don't know she's needed I started cutting myself every season Tried to hang myself for several reasons I felt so alone who would need me Some man touching me when I'm sleeping He made me feel like he was needed I drowned myself in the bathroom tub But that didn't work, thought I was bluffing So I pop a pill for several reasons I felt so alone who would need me I have sex without the meaning We touching and you're so damn needed I don't mean to love you I just need reasons Can someone love me throughout the seasons And this is my suicide note Just pray for my soul I know I can't keep holding on It's time for me to let go This pain in me just seems to grow I just can't keep holding on It time for me to let go Everyone I love just end up leaving But everyone just got their seasons I tried to find out their purpose their meaning Causing me pain seems to be the reason You could at least told me bye before leaving Fucking up my insides must not need them Don't tell me you love me it's not needed We fucking and that's all I needed I pray every night for my nieces I want them to be the best at achieving I'm gone do some right before I leave them I hope they know how much their needed Little girl in me please leave me You feel so weak but you're so needed Don't let no one tell you you don't have meaning I pray for you too cause you need it And this is my suicide note Just pray for my soul I know I can't keep holding on It's time for me to let go This pain in me just seems to grow I just can't keep holding on It time for me to let go