The Karma

I'ma take the charge before I let my mans eat it I ain't got a record but he do I know that I could beat it My last ex didn't work out not cause nobody cheated Age played a role and other shit I'ma just keep it secret I haven't spoken to my mama in a couple weeks Our last conversation make it hard for me to juggle sleep She see me as her baby boy cause I hustle discreet She think I'm innocent ain't witness me shuffle through street Or hustle to eat The shit I did just to survive made a boy to a beast I'm not a kid no more I'm bitter It's hard to be sweet cause they'll see me as weak Once they see you as meat that's like instant defeat Who I'ma come to when everybody coming to me Who I'ma run to when everybody running to me Asking something of me wanting something from me Cause I said yes a hundred times but that no started beef Me and Shea was everyday but now we never speak I had to mute you cause you posted him but never posted me I'm still a G can't show or speak on shit that's deep internally This shit be burning me women I trusted turned on me I spent thousands but can't say it was returned on me No concern for me no closure just discern for me It's the game I play it too I know you learned from me Honestly it's Karma from the player that I used to be Cause I did bitches twice as dirty don't feel shame for me Cause I'll play with you before I let you play with me I say some crazy shit before you can say it to me It's PTSD from this chick that fucked me mentally It killed the simp in me admit I lost some sympathy I chilled eventually committed to you instantly Perfect chemistry I fell for you tremendously And the intimacy always felt intense to me Cause I was missing you was hoping you was missing me It's hard for me to move on cause I'm still stuck on our history I've been on different dates it's like these women just not getting me Or trying to match my energy focused on shit they get from me I used to want to get married and start a family But lately I've been thinking it's scaring me and all actually Disregarding love women talk about it transactionally And all these podcasts making marriage feel so contractually I would do it if the woman heart attached to me Dating in this era come with pain and half your salary Things ain't been the same because I'm praying oh so casually Just chalked it to the game I'm tired of feeling like a casualty Cause people always mad at me just hope that God not mad at me Yeah Cause people always mad at me just hope that God not mad at me T5