Defeatist

Most days it's hard to get out of bed What's the use? Won't change a thing if I did Can't ever seem to get nothing right Hold myself as I cry through the night Don't know how much more I can take Pushed past my limits My bones ache Everyday feels the same Devoted to me This never ending pain Does it ever get better? Riddled with sadness How do I breathe All I've ever known is pure agony Feel hopeless if I feel at all The void calls to me Try my best to stall Don't know how much more I can take Pushed past my limits My bones ache Everyday feels the same Devoted to me This never ending pain Does it ever get better? Black hole of thought holds me hostage Harps on the past Every mistake I made Shouts, "I'm the worst", "don't deserve to live" Would the world be better off If that's what I did? Don't know how much more I can take Pushed past my limits My bones ache Everyday feels the same Devoted to me This never ending pain Does it ever get better?