Blame

I just sit in my room and I just contemplate Cause I'm surprised I'm still alive to see the brighter days I'm hoping God don't take my shine away Cause I've been trying to hide my darkest days They show some love but I think they lying right away And it's sickening Is this the world I'm living in? I'm ashamed Guess I'm the one you should blame Cause I let it slide way too many times They took advantage of my kindness But now I'm numb, they say I changed up now And I don't really wanna stay around It's like they kids & my heart their playing around It's like I got nothing left I don't feel so impressed They done showed me what they got And I'm like, okay, what's next? My heart been broke so many times She had me playing the bench And that shit had me upset I've been living, don't wanna live no more I've been put in second place so many times I'm tired of keeping score Like, damn it man, it feels so wrong But I've been keeping strong I don't know why I'm losing my mind I'm trying to be with you But you treating me so cruel I don't know what to do I'm hoping I'm the one you choose But I can't put the blame on you I don't know why I'm still trying for you I can't put the blame on you I don't know why I'm still trying for you I wrote this letter cause I can't see you now And I'm sorry for the way I acted I was acting wild I just wanna see you smile Because it's been a while The way I'm feeling now Shit I be in the clouds Cause if I come down I might feel it All these feelings I'm pushing away All the memories of us laying down late at night And you telling me it was just me Yeah, I messed it all up It's my fault That you went with him and not me And I can't put the blame on you Cause maybe if I stepped up in your shoes I'd see the way I fucking treated you You told me you felt used And maybe that's the truth Cause I was getting over her And I just needed you You never know you had a good girl Until you lose her I was stuck in toxic ways Oh man, I feel ashamed Damn it, I do And if I could go change the past Then I'd choose you God works in mysterious ways Sometimes you don't get what you want in life And that's the way it goes And you just gotta move on All I ever did was show you true love I don't think I can ever trust a man Because of all the lies you told me I hate you so much, KARINE Because of all the lies you told me You ruined me Way too many times Way too many times And I can't put the blame on you I don't know why I'm still trying for you Cause I can't put the blame on you I don't know why I'm still trying for you