Clean

Some days I want to row this boat into the river Ebb and flow, and throw myself into the sea Stand out in the snow until I start to shiver Hold my heavy breath until my soul feels clean I don't know I can't see Where this goes Maybe it's not for me To say this time Oh but god I'm trying To love myself, oh, oh And all this life, oh, oh ​ Some days I want to run away into the forest Build a little house off-grid, just you and me Or fly right off this rock and join the angel chorus Drive into the sun until my soul feels clean I don't know I can't see Where this goes Maybe it's not for me To say this time Oh but god I'm trying To love myself, oh, oh And all this life, oh, oh And I know the world is waiting, wild and bright So why is it I can't sleep at night I know, better than most, tomorrow's no guarantee Still, these doubts have daggers; they're holding me Holding me down I don't know I can't see Where this goes Maybe it's not for me To say this time Oh but god I'm trying To love myself, oh, oh And all this life, oh, oh Some days I want to ride away beyond the railroad Leave it all behind, everything chained to me Forget about heaven above and hell below Sink into the earth 'til my soul feels clean Sink into the earth until my soul feels clean Sink into the earth 'til my soul feels clean Just sink into the earth until my soul feels clean