i hate to

Really hurt to do it Really hate to do it Really, really Really hate to do it But I'm hurting I'm hurting baby I'm hurting I Really hate to do it (Really hate to do it) Really hate to do it (Really hate to do it) I'm hurting I need healing So I called my homeboy up To come and hold me I really hate to do this to you baby I feel guilty But did you feel guilty When she called you up And you went to hold her (No) So ima keep doing it Cause it takes my pain away Even in the moment He makes me makes me feel safe In the moment He takes he takes my hurt away Even though he ghosts me I ghost him the next day This whole thing is toxic I'm so fucking toxic And I know it I don't want to be toxic It's wearing wearing me down Wearing wearing me down