Happiness, That I Forbid Myself

I can't shake the feeling that something is going to explode The most painful thing we can do in our lives is choose to hope (After all of the hiding) (After all of the fighting) I've lost control of all the emotions I've held in now And it's bursting out I can't help but feel like we're teetering on the brink of joy This electric highwire we tread hoping not to be destroyed Through endless carefulness We kid ourselves out of so much of what make life so good And we're stopping now All the happiness that I forbid myself It doesn't belong to anyone else It's taken years for me to find myself And the journey has just begun oh, happiness that I forbid myself It doesn't belong to anyone else It's taken years for me to find myself And the journey has just begun There is so much beauty in life that is yet to be adored There are types of colours that I've never ever seen before Through reckless merriment We give the child inside our souls the love they never got Let them re-birth A magical vulnerability Like chopping all your hair off and throwing it in the sea (Throwing it in the ocean) Letting it happen now Letting it happen now I am flirting with the idea of everyone The idea of everyone Don't let your heart go to waste Don't let your heart go to waste All the happiness that I forbid myself It doesn't belong to anyone else It's taken years for me to find myself And the journey has just begun oh, happiness that I forbid myself It doesn't belong to anyone else It's taken years for me to find myself And the journey has just begun