As I Lay

As I lay As I lay down Fill my heart with song Time will write the wrongs Many men will fall As I lay down Burning in the flame Withering my soul Memories of your smile As I lay I just want you to feel I just want you to feel One last time As I lay down Covered in the muck Drowning in your love I can't get enough (As I lay down) Lately, I've been suffering, broken, hollow, alone, hopeless My baby crying, I ain't got enough for the abortion Mama disappointed Trying not breakdown, relapse Turn this beanie to a ski mask, saying f*ck you I saw my friend die He grew up with me His face turned grey No longer was he struggling His body layed, lifeless on the floor right in front of me Last words he said to me "remember me" May he Rest In Peace Voices in my head again Falling in the black, I was drowning in my detriment Questioning everything I've accepted as the truth, I've been misled I can't comprehend it, so I question it Who are you? What are you? When are you? Where are you? Why are you, even doing this? Feels like everything I try to do just leads to ruin and, everybody saying they love you but where's the truth in it? Ain't no proof in it Instead misled defenseless men repent with led The head that bled the crest to red The mess that's left on steps to threats address was blessed The breath of death suggests your next Poison is the venomous fluid that's burning through my veins, I injected it Puppeteer of the blood and tears, I perfected it The hole inside my soul doesn't show in my reflection bitch Metropolis of monogamy Society Dying dichotomy Lack autonomy with who I am and who I wanna be Cleverly lifted lever, especially meant to be gifted Never accepted the difference I'm left with amusement as I endeavor to bliss eluding, the fantasy of religion Consistency of illusion Corruption of love and hatred Concluding reality is polluted I drain the sewer to prove that when you win you lose I needed me bigger noose to carry the burden I murder myself for the purpose of yours The led'll disperse, bring red to the church, when Bloody Mary begs for a burn Are you White, are you black? Do you fight with the pride of a badge? Or the thrill to fill a page? Put a knife in your mask A knee on your neck, I bleed on the crest Agree to digress, speaking bleak a freak to the rest Too late, too many mistakes I'll burn at the stake, be free of the weight of all of my sins From these "well wishing, friendly actin, envy hiding snakes" Ether all these people away, as I lay down Many men will fall Burning in the flame As I lay, down down down Withering my soul Memories of your smile As I lay down As I lay down As I lay