Beyond the Grave

No decision without reasoning I cannot waste this, it's too long And all the time that I knew this I'd never thought of the joy that much For the times that come my way I'd knew the reasons I had to give But a fulfilling life, that made me proud Was never what I'd had to live Now I watch it crumble Look up to the sky way too much Hoping for miracles to fall my way I've chosen where I decay Fallen into the ways of the world The dilemma haunting me What's the worth in all this time? So everytime I feel I fucked up my whole life Expect to make a change To walk away But where do I go from here? A future far from stable Survive for all this time Too long I saw the light shine Quite far from the choices I made I can't wait this out, it's never too late So if I'll be walking out the gates Greeted by thunder No ways into the darkened world I left It had to hurt And is the future so bright now? Or was I always too late? I am my own life I am my own death I am my own mistake Stuck here to live with on my own These bright moments I dim myself Will I find out what's best for me? No The selfmade man That made himself Faulty foundations Which he built is life upon To live and prosper Under a blackened sky Is to fail for a lifetime In a world of comfort I will never know On this earth it all is failing There's no point in resisting Wanting way too many times To ascend beyond the grave