In Between

Floating In a state of mind I do not want Should I walk towards the sun And deny where I am? Dishearted By what I feel, how much it aches Putting all I am to waste Is it worth the try? Wait for the day Where I'm finally sane And can leave this all behind Not destroy the past Can't keep going on like this The smallest thoughts, they pull my heart apart The never-ending chaos Still here Let this fall away for good Excuses I should deny Hanging on, but when it's gone I'll be glad I took the try Lift this weight of my shoulders And elevate my life Let me reach the highest highs And help others get there with me Confirming my assertions Only to forfeit Goals I'm striving towards Always need the helping hand What will I ever accomplish on my own? Always in wake of decisions Missed oppurtinities Setting off the timebomb in my mind Hold their thoughts too dearly A way too conscious life I am disowning myself