Trust

Sick of thinking 'bout a new beginning When the way she left me haunts me everyday Don't wanna go into this When it's made to fail How much do I have to push this? Or do I have to give this up? There might not be much more in life Than the chances I'm getting now I sacrificed my time, my life, my friends All to help her But the final sacrifice I had to make Was let her go Can I trust my own decisions? I haven't heard from You eversince Glimpses of acceptance showing But from the other side it's just the same Why do I find myself here? Where was the rest I had? I thought I'd live life on my own Without a problem, I needed no one And now A constant need of attention But the fear of refusal is still here I need comfort You gave me rest when I needed You took my stress away But this all still haunts me And there's no sign The next one that I can't see through I'm making all the same mistakes Still so engaging, so enthousiastic So much that I would love to share Am I just looking for a replacement? Trying to move the heaviest rocks Making this harder than it has to be Do I have to prove myself here? Why can't I let this go? Can't it all just end now? Or go the other way? Make this easy or kill it off Time for trust Let's give this away now Can't make it better either way It's not my decision to make Although I wish it was