Wondering

Am I here, just because I was trying to get away From a life where I never truly knew how to behave Am I here, just because I love the feeling Of how she moves all over me I'm hoping, debating Sometime we will be okay There should be A reason Why I'm still staying in this place Trying my best to keep up pace But never getting closer Whatever She holds me She holds me Am I here, just because I was trying to get away From a life where I never truly knew how to behave Am I here, just because I love the feeling Of how she moves all over me Hold on, show me now You chose to live with me somehow What is this you're trying Are you even trying? You, unreasoned one Have so much to leash me on I'm following unknowing If it's okay Now I'm here, wondering if it's best to get away From a life where I don't know how to behave Am I here just because I don't know where to stay And I'm scared to throw it all away? I should find a way out of here Back to a place I know And there I'll finally see myself As everything I'm meant to be And all I never had I will finally feel complete, I hope So where do I go now? Where do I go? Where do I go now? Just tell me where to go How do I find A place to rest my soul When comfort seems so far away? I can't let go I'm kept here willingly But I should be build up not broken down