PHONE // ALONE

Kinda ashamed to tell you Even now I still depend my worth on scores I get in tests Cause people told me it's the only thing you should care about Now my life's fucked up how's that Yeah good kids They don't ever think or ever behave in ways they've never been told So when I try to not be someone else people say no one's like me before I'm narcissistic I'm complacent For always being so consistent To stick to myself without thinking what the f*ck it's all for Funny how I exchange confidence with being stubborn Never felt appreciated why I'm not belong Tough on the outside I'm sick of the feeling of inferiority Can't help it when it just haunt back and take the best of me Yeah Can you feel me Yeah Where's the faith in myself All I see is competitions Never been the biggest fan But I crave to get acknowledged Where's my chance though I'm still not qualified to imagine? Doubts in my heart Make me so empty and thin Voices too loud Turn a little down for me please Tryna express myself I'm not looking for clout But all I want is to be heard This struggle is too much Now I'm sitting in my room Stucking in my phone Time goes on Tryna know what is going on God knows how much I wish someone can hang me out Let me have some companies Be less alone I don't need no fake Balenciagas If I can be proud of my style with no logos My friends proud of me too I don't have to drown in my own sagas If I can be proud of my story My friends won't turn cold for them too It's midnight I heard a whisper in my ear Someday you'll get away from all of those feelings It's alright But now all you need to face is tomorrow Sometimes you're growing up when you're feeling like falling Doors closed Why laying on my bed feels so tired why I feel like I'm losing all my cool So I scroll on my phone Looking at nothing but nothing Trying my best In order not to be Alone Trying my best in order not to be Alone Alone You're my best friend but I hate you I know I could've been sad forever But I always wanna know how to feel better I know I could have run away from all this But I always wanna know what is the problem I trap myself drown can't get over with myself I don't wanna think too much So I stuck in my phone I trap myself drown can't get over with myself I don't wanna think too much But I can't stop feeling... Turn on the TV, that's my annual new year gift Turn on a lullaby though I'm no more a kid The things they're interested in I ain't mind a bit As long as I smile I wouldn't be in embarrassment Fell in love with a hottie who liked grabbing my ass He the only one who seemed have the desire I kinda enjoyed this feeling of playing with fire Leave me alone! (as long as I'm not feeling alone) So cringe Huh Wow I'm thinking about all that cringe When it comes to the times When I need to speak my mind I'm always standing there giving no speech Maybe I'm nervous maybe I'm weak Maybe I care what people may think It happens every day in my life I compromise then I regret In the end, the only one who gets hurt is me Felt lucky getting fake smiles Traveling fake miles Tied on this ride to nowhere Can't lose the seatbelt Just excuse me for being so low Abuse my pain until my heart gets broke Shit has never been easy bearable but never calm Get up 100 times for one more fall The beautiful sides always do me no harm So close to me I want a feel But we're parallel Like 2 lines drawn on paper without a shared home The more I want intersections the more that makes me ill They always be like Be better Be better bro You're not enough you'd better be better But all I've wanted is to be comfortable Comfortable And just feel less Alone Trying my best in order not to be Alone Alone You're my best friend but I hate you I know I could've been sad forever But I always wanna know how to feel better I know I could have run away from all this But I always wanna know what is the problem I know I could have lock myself in my cage But I know that's not the way to feel safer I know I could have just give it all up But there's always something I can't stop caring of I stuck in my phone because I'm alone I stuck in my phone because I'm alone Kill all this time to feel comfortable The outside world, safer to connect it with my phone I care myself Hold on to myself Follow whatever I tell myself But still, can't live without my phone I care myself Hold on myself Still have love for myself But still can't stop feeling... (I'm getting tired... so tired) But still can't stop feeling alone (Whoever stole my happiness please give it back) I stuck in my phone because I'm alone I stuck in my phone because I'm alone I stuck in my phone because I'm alone I stuck in my phone because I'm alone I stuck in my phone because I'm alone I stuck in my phone because I'm alone