WHATS NEXT?

Been tryna take some precautions And I Gotta cut all my losses Last few years have been the hardest Putting the work in finish what I started Darkness overspreads like fire off my flesh My enemies tryna plot my death And I ain't really getting no rest Living a little not living my best Most of my life I been depressed Honestly my whole story is dense Went to therapy wasn't feeling myself Started feeling more depressed than I felt Cause I didn't believe in hope Carrying my burdens a heavy load Call me bruce willis I don't know that Im dead Or maybe I do know but I rather pretend I was on those Anti-depressants For my anxiety and my depression Im trying to do better Im sending some letters Sending a letter for some of the hurt that you caused And Thats putting some of my life on pause Problems coming in like tusks Plane falling down Time to go full thrust All my life I was never enough I ain't good for myself so I'm never too much Man I hate myself But Im tryna keep up on my mental health Im tryna find parts of me that was stolen And get out of this mindset of dysfunction I thought the things that would bury me God used them plant me Life is hard thats reality And Im tryna keep all my sanity Tryna put in some work The pain is the worst If I keep on living my past out Im wasting my life So I keep living everyday to get it right