Surrender

It's not that I don't care I know its here somewhere But its more than I can bare to take I lie awake at night I never win the fight Its an addiction I cant shake Its overbearing me Growing, flowing, showing Chorus I surrender, forever I fold, I played the losing card I'm under Its over I give it up its all too hard It's not I'm unsure I've heard it all before But I cant help wanting more to keep You just don't understand The way I really am Its all I ever can be But underneath it all I'm breaking, waking, shaking