hear me

Do you hear that? It's raining, like every time when I'm about to writing I fucking hate this stupid feeling Cuz it's just getting worse when I'm thinking It's my best friend, and that's funny cuz I don't have friends I don't even fucking care about it Cuz everybody just want someone who care about it I don't even know what the f*ck I'm doing I'm just talking about my feelings, you hearing? Pretending to someone will hear this stupid loser who already lost everything Siting down, thinking bout the things I made Thinking if it's possible to make a change Bad choices with good people without reasons Stupid things I made cuz of my thoughts Chest pain hands shaking try to rest I can't even feel my fucking face Doing drugs cuz I don't wanna feel Doing drugs cuz I don't wanna live Someday I'll feel fine, that's a question It will all be over soon, that's a wish Don't wanna be romaticized, a wish too I just wanna be at peace when I'm gone