Diary <3

It's safe to say I made a way I don't know how to feel To ease my mind I smoke this pain I don't know how to heal I lost my nana last year that shit still give me chills I still can't shake that feeling off I don't know how to deal And you know it's hard but I make it look easy I give up my heart I provide for who need me And I wrote this song so you smile when you see me And man I can't lie sometimes I wanna die just to see you again They want me to change, but I can't do it If I feel a way I hit the yo and put it in my music I know I influence And I'm talking money I speak fluent Stack it like I'm Jewish Suave baby I been getting through it I know that some day I will not be here I know in some way you probably still care We all have those days that we don't see clear But it get better shit won't be like this forever no I swear to god I know say that every time But I can't let it slide Cause when I try that shit f*ck with my pride That shit f*ck with my mind You looked in my eyes and told me lies That pain I tried to hide by getting fried I come from selling dimes You a homebody you don't even party on the weekends You don't f*ck with niggas they just turn you off you be playing defense Baby I was young jumped in that water I was in the deep end Don't nobody got me how they say they got me I don't really need friends They left me out to dry and it was raining too I came back home without a heart guess that's what pain a do I was tryna get it I was in the trap tryna turn 1 to 2 I'm just tryna win so like I'm from out west I just throw up Ws It's safe to say I made a way I don't know how to feel To ease my mind I smoke this pain I don't know how to heal I lost my nana last year that shit still give me chills I still aint shake that feeling off I don't know how I deal And you know hard but I make it look easy I give up my heart I provide for who need me And I wrote this song so you smile when you see me Man I can't lie sometimes I wanna die just to see you again I know that some day I will not be here I know in some way you probably still care We all have those days that we don't see clear But it get better shit won't be like this forever no I swear to god