Demons

I got an awkward relationship with the mirror The trauma that I suffered doesn't make it any clearer Depression drawing nearer And I can't stop it Family will do anything to avoid that topic I look at seeking help for mental health as being weak I don't believe any of you ever cared for me I may be wrong but I can't see it That's what it's like The sun shines but I can't see it Though I fight The sadness I can't beat it Don't wanna die Happiness I just wanna see it Tears from my eyes create rage from a dark place I don't think a soul is qualified to help my heartache My heartaches god could you help me I've been praying so much to where I think it's unhealthy Society loves to shelf me Gotta be more to life than obsessions of being wealthy Use to be my dog You ain't keep it real with me Kinda ironic you ain't here to build with me Eat a meal with me Game and chill with me Until you wanna use me you don't even deal with me You hit me like Yo T you the realest and I know it now Should've kept in touch sorry for the way things went down The way the word friend gets tossed around Makes me wanna grab the AR and toss some rounds So I'm the realest and you know this So what made you think I'd let you f*ck up my focus Fucking locus Never was down for me I remember who was laying on the ground with me All the guns aiming and goons surrounding me Since then I stay alone no clowns with me Forever I'll have issues with trust I've been through hell so heavens a must We all got our demons Wait a minute Been heavy on my heart for years Lets talk about it Just a little bit though I was a kid wasn't really on no sex shit But down stairs I guess they was on some next shit Because how would you know to do What you did to me if it wasn't done to you Whoever did it was dead wrong You were just a young girl But you was lead wrong You know our family ties so we all head strong Ain't no burying secrets unless you dead and gone Years ago my dad put me on the phone with you He didn't know that would make me uncomfortable We'll always be blood so don't think I don't care Just can't be around y'all the shit feels weird