Traveler's Mind

I've danced with Suicide so many times Think it's time I stopped Wify pushes opened the door before I let off a shot We moved to Florida hoping we could find better No matter where i go it doesn't make my mind better I grind better than I ever have This little certification done more for me than college ever had 15th floor can't forget those nights Shout out to Rachel and Sandy All of those Reno nights Y'all held me down without ever disrespecting my wife Still those titties were out Jeans fitting so right Kimball twerking on the glass in the elevator Walking through the casino I got hella haters I stopped caring about having followers I'm popping in real life And I'll pop you in real life Window seats for all of my night flights Felt quite nice the lights were so bright Good memories can be hard to find Dark clouds hover over this heart of mine They say happiness is close Those who seek shall find Take a look into a travelers mind A travelers mind I hope my grandma proud of me I'm being as good as I can That's all she asked of me So I included it in my plans I was a whore I was a slut too When most of you weren't worth giving a f*ck to Trust who My wife put in the work and all the extra efforts The understanding it took mending a heart that severed You stopped calling years ago They say men and women can be friends Yet here we go Every one I wanted at my wedding didn't come But the ones that mattered did Years later and we still haven't had a kid It messes with my wife's mind everyday I don't think this worlds worth a child of mine anyway Born to die and suffer while I live Can't be selfish when you've given all that you could give So what else do you want from me I wish success stop taunting me And my past stop haunting me Good memories can be hard to find Dark clouds hover over this heart of mine They say happiness is close Those who seek shall find Take a look into a travelers mind A travelers mind So tell the world that I don't belong I made it pass 25 still going strong Fighting suicide without the meds Whether right or wrong It all comes together when I write my songs Been many places Same shit different toilet If you haven't I'm sorry that I had to spoil it People don't change most barely evolve Insecurities we have are rarely resolved I ain't perfect but I try to be No matter how insane it sounds That's what's inside of me There's no I in team but I am me Most can't match the passion that's inside me Inside of me Lies a heart so damaged almost unforgiving Confused but thank the heavens that I'm still living I'm different sometimes I hate that shit Misery in the background saying take that shit Good memories can be hard to find Dark clouds hover over this heart of mine They say happiness is close Those who seek shall find Take a look into a travelers mind A travelers mind