Stranger

I feel so motivated, see, I can't stop writing But I can't stop fighting For my purpose on this surface as I work so hard to heighten Every step along my path until the words I speak enlighten Look, lately things been weighing on me And I don't know which way I'm falling It was just the other night I swear my grandma came and saw me Saw me still just standing still and said now we're not waiting, are we? Yup, see I grew up an only child And now I'm running out of friends, I've been lonely for a while I became a nervous wreck when out in public and I suck at Making conversation, so I hide from people, never smile And I never sleep at night and eat unhealthy, never question Why I isolate myself, it's like I never learn my lesson I guess I do it for protection I guess I fear my own reflection Stranger, stranger, stranger, stranger I know deep inside I’ve got the strength to find I’m a stranger, stranger, stranger, stranger Myself in this darkness, I just need some time Who is this stranger, stranger, stranger, stranger I’m not looking for the answers, just some peace of mind I’m a stranger, stranger, stranger, stranger Destroy the stranger in the mirror and let me survive I reminisce on when I started and all that I have written All the confidence I had and standing tall, I hate just sitting But I’ve been making up excuses just to compensate the villain Cause I’m coping with the fact that I’ve been contemplating quitting And it’s been a long ride, good and bad times, at times I felt like I was king of the world, but then I had times That all I felt was was guilt and it built up and bad vibes Kept me in a slump so deep, I couldn’t even pad rhymes I swear I’ve told so many lies It’s like I wake up every morning just to put on a disguise The only time I see the truth is when I dare to close my eyes But then it scares me half to death so I’m just restless through the nights I can’t sleep without the aid of medication, I’m still facing The fact that I could fall at any time and any pace and I tried to stop the clock, I broke it’s hands, but I’m still aging So there’s nothing I can do but grip the pen and flip the page then Stranger, stranger, stranger, stranger I know deep inside I’ve got the strength to find I’m a stranger, stranger, stranger, stranger Myself in this darkness, I just need some time Who is this stranger, stranger, stranger, stranger I’m not looking for the answers, just some peace of mind I’m a stranger, stranger, stranger, stranger Destroy the stranger in the mirror and let me survive I put a gun to my head, but couldn’t pull the trigger Held a razor to my wrists, but didn’t have that in me either So I balled up a fist, stared down the man in the mirror And started beating his ass for being the one that put me here I Can’t stand what I’ve done to myself, and now my hands are bloody Looking at my broken image, oh yeah, you’re handsome, buddy Screaming at the mirror out of anger while you’re plans are running Out the door and now the floor is sinking while you’re standing on it I should give up and hum and mumble See I tried to warn myself, but all I heard was mumbo jumbo Was so arrogant and wearing it like I’m not one to fumble Now I’m trying to comprehend why my asylum’s become a jungle Shit, now I’m caving, and why? Because I waited and I waited as the days would go by So if you’re waiting for your moment then start saying goodbye Cause if you’re waiting to live then you’re just waiting to die Stranger, stranger, stranger, stranger I know deep inside I’ve got the strength to find I’m a stranger, stranger, stranger, stranger Myself in this darkness, I just need some time Who is this stranger, stranger, stranger, stranger I’m not looking for the answers, just some peace of mind I’m a stranger, stranger, stranger, stranger Destroy the stranger in the mirror and let me survive