eighteen

(eighteen) (what's it mean) Long year (eighteen) How did we get here? (how did we get here) It's been a long ride (yeah, been a long ride) But how do we get clear? (how do we get clear) It's been too much of Empty promises, I know you, know they wont stay Second chances, I don't think you're gonna change Broken messages, I keep to myself nowadays And now I'm Falling, yeah In and out of love to fill the void I've been tryna run away from all the people I destroyed I've been counting all my blessings, all the things that I avoid All these voices in my head, yeah they got me paranoid I think I like the idea of you better The more I find out, I'm just lovin' u lesser Oh well, not like we're gonna last forever But nobody loves the pressure When I'm without you I don't know my place But with or without you imma find my way And I had a lot of questions about myself Push 'em aside, don't go into that A lot on my mind, no need for the past Well shit, while we're on the topic Remember we were good, started slitting my wrists Wake up in the morning, now your face makes me sick I can't even speak, only wasting my spit (and now I'm) Falling, yeah In and out of love to fill the void I've been tryna run away from all the people I destroyed I've been counting all my blessings, all the things that I avoid All these voices in my head, yeah they got me paranoid Never feel like I belong I done wrote too many songs I just crave a touch, so can you tell me that I'm never wrong? Everything I felt is gone Never sleeping until dawn I think I should go and eat, but maybe it's not what I want? Trouble in paradise I remember tying up loose ends all night I'm done fixing your problems, I'm not your gun Sorry to ruin the fun Yeah, got high for the first time Mary Jane, on cloud nine Sit back, sippin' wine Imma drown on my own time Spend my life online Hour 40, doin overtime In my life, where's the punchline? Always watchin from the sidelines