More Confused Than Ever

(I'm thinkin') maybe if I crank an idea out I'll find a better way to exist And maybe if I sell my soul I Can see the beauty I've always missed (I) don't know if I'm tethered to my mind And I can never be who I miss Cuz that person He doesn't exist I always find myself doing Things I don't care about 'cause I (I) keep telling myself it's the right way I lost everything I loved in this Pursuit of something dumb and I (I) don't know if I can make it back If I can make it back And still I sit on this couch confused I'm trying my best to do The things I'm supposed to do But I still can't see I can't see the end I can't see the fun And the friends And the laughs And the joy And I feel like I've been someone's toy And I don't know if I've done it wrong And I don't know if I'm just a lost cause (And) I know I have everything I need So why don't I feel like I'm livin' dreams? And I don't see the worth of it all (and) I feel like thinking's the reason this all came down Crashing down on me I don't wanna be