T Told Me

Yo It's getting harder for me to navigate, but I've got a vision I know I have to chase Moving easy, I'm taking it as a jog I ain't rushing This ain't a sprint but some people still want to have a race Early stages, but I see they've started burning out Twice as efficient, but I only move at half the pace So affected by judgment, I know I can't escape it Embedded deep in my mental that I just can't erase Complicated, I'm hoping to have it figured out. Got one shot at the bucket, I know I have to make There's a risk I might never be who I'm meant to be But it's okay, cause I'm grateful I got to rap today Many nights I get lonely, I'm like a castaway All this pressure been flooding my mind I struggle to cry Anxiety's hitting me like a crashing wave Too many problems in front of me, that I have to face And I have to face them and take them on one at a time I know my mom would look amazing with a new Louis bag So I'm bound to have a couple hanging under my eyes. Fully stuck in the grind. Not affected by the ones that truly want to demise, it's fake love in disguise, for real Can't say nothing to me, 'cause when I fall, I just bounce right back like AWB You getting done in these streets but that still ain't enough Cause even on my rainy days you man is still getting sonned Ain't no way that I be giving them love 'cause I'm not talking by the meal When I tell you they been dishing me subs. You lend a hand, you end up giving up a leg and an arm They're so jealous that you finished but they haven't tried to get to the start Many nights where I was heavily starved. Too many times where I was left with a scar You couldn't fake the damage And time just hasn't been the greatest bandage I'm reminiscing on my tainted chances An ex I should've taken out, I used to take for granted I didn't realize my blessing till I didn't have it anymore She's moving on, I'm moving up in life. She's doing something good, I'm doing something nice Though we moved in different directions, right when you left, I still felt the connection I'm overstepping, it's so upsetting to realize that you're the type of girl I needed the most It's kind of wild I wasn't keeping you close You ain't the type of girl you sneak into the house. You're the type of girl you bring to your home, I hope you know the difference. I know all my brothers know the difference Type of shit you get to see when you stick together And we don't mention what we're bringing to the table, we're just happy we can sit together Cause we've been together. And made the times we have live forever Head high, but I'm rolling deep I'm working hard enough to roam the street and notice people notice me You see, this is the life that I chose While I'm sticking to my lane, you're on the side of the road Riding alone, my nights get quiet and cold It's many times I've contemplated getting high when I'm low, for real T told me keep going 'cause it's right there and keep your head down till the sky clears Feels like I hardly take the right steps. I act like I'm calm, but I'm quite scared Yeah, I'm quite scared and life taught me not to fight fear. They spoke about me like I might care, But I'm chasing all my dreams while I'm running from my nightmares I keep my head high, but I'm laying low, I'm moving steady as I take it slow Too many think that they can take control I see that trying to dress the part got you thinkin' that you could play the role Been out of sight 'cause I been makin' notes