growing down

When I was young Growing up just Seemed like fun Yeah, I was dumb She didn't know any better Didn't know that shit Don't last forever Don't last forever Am I growing up Or growing down Someone help me I can't Figure it out Is there something there That I can't see? Something out there in this world for me This world for me When I was young I Packed my bag and Went on the run Just want some freedom And I couldn't make it Past the driveway But, it's hard out there What can I say Am I growing up Or growing down Someone help me I can't Figure it out Is there something there That I can't see? Something out there in this world for me This world for me And my chest is full of emptiness Where my heart should be I'd rather say I hate myself Than go to therapy I love too hard And that's my flaw I'd die for people Who would cut me off