Doorman

I am not high upon your list Of things that you are patient with I am written down below The inlaws and the pets Our conversations don't exist And it's all my fault you insist 'Cause all you've been is good to me But I'm the one who quit You know how I get so upset When your voice is firm as it can get Still you rattle onward As if I'm deaf to every word I bet you'd like to turn me 'round And smack my backside 'til it burns Then you could assert yourself As keeper of the keys What is it that's holding me back From walking with my chin up past the doorman What is it that's keeping me here What is it that's keeping me near you What is it that you said to me I've got selfish generosity That all I've ever done for you Was just for my own gain And that if you were to die today I'd jump right back into play Without as much as a second's thought No grief or remorse What is it that's holding me back From walking with my chin up past the doorman What is it that's keeping me here What is it that's keeping me near you I never understood the fact That you loved me with these strings attached And now I'm having nightmares As I turn the other cheek