Suffer Through

Leave me chained to the bed Leave me to the thoughts in my head Leave me to reminisce all the memories I couldn't kill Leave me in a state of shit Leave me floating in the wind Leave me to explore my worth Leave me to be my worst It's all apart of my process I never feel more alone than when I'm in a crowded room I'll get the urge to speak but sit quiet and listen To the thoughts of strangers that I might love to know And the carefree parts of them really speak to me It's the ways I can't relate but envy Making me feel crazy Fill me with vanity And let me run free Short of thrills and oxygen I wanna feel alive in the midst Of failure and self-loathing I wanna feel alive again Disconnected from it all It's difficult forming connections With the souls I come across I'd love to share my time with them But this mind is my crux Going from extreme to extreme I never really know what I want but I know I want it Residing with manic tendencies And the notion of coming clean I've bitten off more than I can chew But I'll just suffer through Leave me to sunlight and warmth Leave me in the arms of my love Leave me inside dreams of prosperity Leave me for the ones I trust Leave me with a will to live Leave me with a chance to grow Leave me with the knowledge of knowing When to come and when to go Another night thinking of life and what will come next I need some sleep I'll figure out the rest Days add up, the nights turn cold What am I here for?