One time.

I take three grams of night sky and let it fall on me 500 days I'm deprived Go call the academy Cause I'm acting right, I'm acting good Only god knows what it is all for I'm tired of these guessing games Do you love me or not? I'm tired of waiting 'round for a gavel to drop You say I don't act right, my eyes cold And that's not what you like But you made me this way Is it a nightmare? If I know how it ends Do you still need me? If I'm already slippin If I go If I go If I go If I go Would you notice? Can you promise to remember me young, wild, and free? These days I've been giving advice but I won't listen to me I use words to medicate but the emptiness is heavy I can't say it right Is it a nightmare? If I know how it ends Do you still need me? If I'm already slippin' If I go If I go If I go If I go Would you notice? And I promise I'll call you like sorry I know you don't expect it from me Can I? Can I be selfish one time? Can I? Can I be selfish one time?