Control

It's been a while I've been gone for quite a moment, I don't know if you had noticed But I'm back, writing songs For me to sing alone in the dark My time is almost out I'm almost out of breath And they're coming for my neck, yeah Time is almost out What will I become? When all is said and done I'd like to meet my monsters, have a talk Ask them why I'm under their control I asked for help and got none, after all I'm to blame for all the pain I hold Had a dream but can't fight for it I need help but can't cry for it I fear judgment, I'll lie for it Shut them all out, they wonder why I'm so distant Thought that I just need fixing They can't understand that I'm different Gave me shame I held so deep in, they Made me blame myself for existing Who the f*ck am I supposed to be pissed at? Whose fault is it? It's the whole system They can't help, I'm not worth assistance They can't help, they ain't even listening It gets hard being optimistic I'm too flawed to trust my instincts Hope my demons don't get to win this fight I'd like to meet my monsters, in the dark Ask them why I'm under their control I asked for help and got none, after all I'm to blame for all the pain I hold (monsters, have a talk) (Under their control) Pain I hold (got none, after all) Pain I hold (monsters) (Under) Pain I hold (got none) I'm to blame for all the pain I hold