Bruises

The father I've loved is nowhere to find And instead he leaves all these bruises behind In my heart, heart Will it always stay this way Called him a monster in my head everyday Yet I wake up and find that I've grown horns myself And I fear, fear I'm no different than he is I could call him so many unspeakable things But I keep it inside and hold it within Every word he says to me Degrades me has no thought for me His words hurt more for it's always out of the blue When will I Ever leave his side And why do I Continue to seek his validation Maybe it's because The father I've loved is nowhere to find And instead he leaves all these bruises behind In my heart, heart Will it always stay this way Called him a monster in my head everyday Yet I wake up and find that I've grown horns myself And I fear, fear I'm no different than he is Expect me to exceed all ur expectations You act like your more than enough When you aren't even the bare minimum Ask me if I'm doing fine Ask me if I'm doing alright Nothing will fix or mend the distance between us And when will I Ever leave his side Why do I Continue to seek his validation Maybe it's because The father I've loved is nowhere to find And instead he leaves all these bruises behind In my heart, heart Will it always stay this way Always stay this way Will it always stay this way Always stay this way The father I've loved is nowhere to find And instead he leaves all these bruises behind In my heart, heart Will it always stay this way