20 or 99

Love and youth and death and all these questions of time and the strangeness of (my) life An inexplicable world that burns itself instead of waiting for the sun to shine Here in my tub the water's hot my legs are blurry shimmers in the dark I hear only cars I'm dreaming of ships passing by in the night sky sailing me away I get outta the tub wrinkled and young spread my arms and jump to that big blue ship Going anywhere but here 'cause anywhere but here is all I wanna be Somewhere above the waves that keep crashing my head water logging my heart Hello shop, not another man, I swear, not another drug Just a way out and up and up and up I might be 20 or 99 or halfway to hell I might 20 or 99 or just lost in myself Halfway though homeroom class Halfway from knowing who the f*ck I am Halfway to halfway but nowhere today